So, Bear still has kidney stones (they did not pass or dissolve) and he has not eaten much in the last 24 hours. He is spending this evening with me and I believe it to be our last together. I keep listening to Sungha Jung play guitar on YouTube.
I cannot stop crying. I do not know how I will make it through the rest of this week. It is tough to accept this fate after I saw him so animated and eating after the surgery. I try not to dwell on the what-ifs. I try to accept and understand that it is just his time. But it's difficult. He's so weak and is nauseous. He confuses the nauseous with food, not his kidneys.
I have another mid-term tomorrow morning. It will be right after we say our final goodbye.
Listening to: Sting - Fields of Gold
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